nyoushi

I found a great photobucket account. here are some of the pics:


this one is my favorite, and I will make it count.

I need to die I mean why should I be alive who would even care, no one, they may say they care but no one even talks to me at school, they rarely invite me to do things, No girl will ever like me, I’ll never have a girlfriend in my whole life. I mean could someone just kill me and end it? Please? How should I kill myself? Any suggestions? Please?

50 things you may have not known about me

After you're done, repost and erase my answers and replace them with your own. Enjoy!


1. What is your middle name?
Clive

2. What color underwear are you wearing now?
Green

3. What are you listening to right now?
TV

4. What are the last 2 digits in your phone number?
84

5. What was the last thing you ate?
Mozzarella sticks

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Gray

7. How is the weather right now?
Sunny

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Umm... Zandra I guess

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their face

10. Favorite type of Food?
umm... Lasagna

11. Do you drink?
Nope

12. What's your favorite drink?
umm...

13. Ever get so drunk you don't remember what you did?
Nope

14. Hair color?
Dark-Brown

15. Eye color?
Bluish-gray, or grayish blue

16. Do you wear contacts?
supposed to but never do

17. Favorite Holiday?
Christmas

18. Favorite Month?
umm... January

19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
umm...

20. What was the last movie you watched?
Corpse Bride

21. Favorite Day of the Year?
I don't have one, every day sucks

22.Are u too shy to ask someone out?
Yes

23.If you can say something to someone right now what would it be?
Would you like to go to the movies? or I love you.

24. Hugs or Kisses?
umm...

25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
chocolate

26. Do you want your friends to respond?
if they want to

27. Who is most likely to respond?
I don't know

28. Who is least likely to respond?
I don't know

29. What books are you reading?
none really

30. Piercing?
I don't want any

31. Favorite Movie?
Kung Fu Hustle

32. Favorite baseball Team?
umm... I guess Mariners

33.What were you doing before this??
Nothing as usual

34. Any pets?
I have one dog, but my family has more

35. aim?
Nyoushi

36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
Butter

37. Dogs or cats?
Dogs

38. Favorite Flower?
Roses or Lily's

39.Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to??
Ya

40. Are you taken or single?
Single (duh, no girl would ever like me)

41.Have you ever loved someone?
Yes

42. Who would you like to see right now??
umm...

43. Are you still friends with your ex's??
Don't have any ex's

44. Have you ever fired a gun?
Yes

45. Do you like to travel by plane?
It's ok

46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
Right handed

47. If you could be somewhere right now, where would it be??
Anywhere but here, somewhere where no one knows who I am.

48. How many pillows do you sleep with?
2

49. Are you missing someone?
Ya

50. Do you have a Tattoo?
Nope

I don't get it. Why do I keep liking her more and more? I mean she'll never like me cause i'm fat and ugly. It's just that I love her so much and she will never like me. I mean I love being a good friend of hers I just don't know why I have to like her when she'll never like me. I wish i could control who I liked and didn't like.

I am bored, I have absolutely nothing to do, the only good news in my life is that my dad finally is working again so we may not go to Utah for a month this summer. I really wouldn't mind if we went, in fact we may move there sometime, and i kind of want to move there so maybe I can make some real friends before i graduate, but I don't want to just go there for a month. I was thinking about asking Zandra if she wanted to see star wars tonight, but she has already seen it, so i won't ask her(not like she would have wanted to go anyway), so i'm probably not gonna see star wars for a long time because no one seems to want to ask me if I want to go see it. Nobody ever seems to invite me to do anything they just like to tell me about ,either, what they are going to do this weekend with all thier friends, or either what they did last weekend and then tell me that i should have come, even though that is the first time i have heard anything about what they were doing. Lately I have had the constant urge to slit my wrists right now I can feel them, just asking. I'm not scared to drive but i can tell that my subconscious has been getting me nearly into wrecks when I am driving except for when I have other people in the car because I won't allow myself to harm other people.

I am seriously considering making a Kung-fu movie, without real styles or anything(maybe some magic thrown in there), just a main character, a mercenary or drifter with no past most likely(best for sequels), getting into fights with some story or something I come up with. If anyone at all who reads this is interested contact me, because I need to write a script and stuff so I want know if people are interested. All I need to do is find people around school and maybe church that want to be in it and I will work on it. I want to have some bokken fights and maybe some matrix style gun fights in there as well as the Kung-fu.

well the "big school dance" is tonight and i'm going to help DJ it with John Hanks. I really don't wanna go, I should have asked Sariah to come to the dance but i really doubt she would have come, i mean we're kinda friends but i doubt she even likes me that much as a friend, even though i am invited to her birthday party on the 23rd. I hope someone asks me if i have a ticket and when i tell them no they tell me to buy one because i will get in my car and drive home. Even if i wasn't DJing i would probably go because Zandra told me to go(i don't think she realizes that i will do pretty much anything she asks me to do), although she doesn't seem to wanna be around me very much lately, the very little time i've spent at sky valley lately she hasn't talked to me very much at all, she probably likes Josh or Austin ahe seems to hang around them alot lately, i wish she could just tell me who she likes then maybe i could get over her. I know that she will never like me, but it's one of those things that you have to hear people actually say before you fully believe it. Anyway i'm going to have a crappy night tonight.

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i'm tired of living here i hope my parents decicide to move to Utah this summer and don't do that whole "let's wait till he finishes high school with his friends" thing. if they don't move maybe i should transfer to the high school and do running start through it. My birthday is two weeks away and i don't care, i am not even going to have a party unless my mom makes me, why should i there is nothing special about my birthday, when i turned 16 i could date(although no girl would ever date me) and i could drive(which meant when i decided to i could leave), but now that i am turning 17 there is no reason to have a party(it's not like anyone would come anyway). i got to talk to Zandra for a while last night wgich was fun because i havent been able to talk to her very much lately, she hasn't seemed to want to hang out with me very much lately and when she does we don't talk very much because there are usually people around, anyway i had fun talking to her last night, and it was good that she was being honest.

Do you think it's a sign if your ready to commit suicide and get in your car to leave school and the song that's on the radio's lyrics are "I'm not ok" over and over? I wish I was smarter, then maybe I would have some friends that actually liked me and liked to talk with me instead of me being a nothing better to do choice to talk to. Maybe I should start just coming in for my classes and going straight to class and not talking to anyone, then I will leave or hide so no one will have to deal with me,I know that no one at school actually likes me, they usually just seem to talk to me if they get or need me to do something. The only person who actually seems to like me in the slightest bit is Zandra ,she wants to talk to me every now and then. Zandra looked great on friday, no matter what outfit she was wearing, of course she always looks beautiful. With David and Zandra breaking up it's weird because I'm starting to like her again, I might have even asked her out if there was even the slightest chance she might like me, but she doesn't, and I'm a wuss about asking girls out. I'm ok just being friends with her though, although she probably won't talk to me anymore if she reads this. One more thing before I finish my rant, why in hell won't Josh and Austin give me a straight answer on Zandra's Random Battle classes, I asked Josh about them and he said to wait until Austin was around, so I did, then i asked them and they said said something about them being weird and went on to a different subject, so then I asked them the next day and they did the same thing, I know they're weird classes but so what, Austin is a gatekeeper character, are we just not allowed to be original in our characters, or do they just not like Zandra. I guess the moral of the story is I seriously doubt I'll live to be 18.